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Saturday, February 23, 2019

This has always been a major part of my identity

I am Korean. This has al moods been a major part of my identity, even though I was born in the States. Being a member of a nonher culture in America means that the way I turn out evermore viewed disembodied spirit, and success, is different than the way most Americans view it. My spawn, who was born and raised in Korea, contributed to this significantly. She did non view American culture, and never fully adapted to American feeling. Living in a new country was confusing for her, which is why she clung so potently to her native culture. She passed this culture and way of thinking on to me.My arrive was a typical Korean mother prideful, overbearing, and she everlastingly had the view of Im always right no matter what you think. Her attitude was maddening at times, especially when she remained completely calm despite telling me I was scathe and she was right. However, it was this very attitude that shaped who I turned step to the fore to be, in many different ways.Traditio nal Korean values and American jobs do not mix well. It was because of my mothers truehearted Korean views that she could not keep a steady job in America. This put us at a real economic disadvantage, but my mother remained strong no matter what. She would find another job, and continue to provide for us somehow. Even when money was tight, she was not discouraged. My mother remained strong and did what she had to do.Watching her capacity tore me apart sometimes. I saw how hard she had to incline, just to garter us get by. When I was 14, after having lost another job, my mother was forced to work for my aunts dissipateding business. She was assigned to clean a building that was within walking distance of our home, because she often had gondola troubles. She made only minimum wage doing this, which I knew was not becoming to support us.I asked my aunt if I could work with my mother in order to make extra money to help with bills. While I cant say I was thrilled at the expected value of working at the age of 14, I knew I needed to do this. At first, my aunt resisted letting me, and my mother wasnt happy either. She did not want me to work. However, within a week, both realized how serious I was about(predicate) working, and they relented. Already I had picked up from my mothers attitude that I needed to do what had to be done, even if I did not want to.When we were not working, my mother and I talked sometimes. Every chance that we had, it would always be about the same dreaded topic my future. Being so deep inside of the grave, as I liked to call our fiscal situation, there was only one direction to look up and out of the hole. I never admitted to myself that I wanted to leave her to go to college how could I? Life was hard enough with both of us working, so it didnt seem possible for her to do it on her own. However, my mother had other ideas about my future. She wanted what was best for me, and not the life that she had raised me in.I always protest ed when she told me this, because I wanted to stay and help her. But she would tell me then, in her serious, dont-argue tone that I needed to go to college to make my life better. Our conversations had an enormous effect on my work ethic and my sense of responsibility. I wanted to receive my degree and help my mom so that she could retire, because she was so selfless in taking care of me, and pushing me towards a brighter future.My mothers quiet, hard-working attitude left a major impression on me. She taught me never to give up, to always do what is necessary, and to continually strive to do better. I will not relent in the face of lifes struggles. I will be strong, I will work hard, and I will dream of a future that would not have been possible if it were not for my mother.

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